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went church wih mum. i feel
so sinful. =X well not gonna elaborate
any further. i jus feel tt way.
aftr tt we went town. all the way
from admiralty to town and i ONLY
bought a pair of shoe! =X
didnt feel lk shoppin at all.
maybe today is jus not the day
for shoppin i guess. so reach
home arnd 4.30pm. and help to do
some stuffs den later veron called
so yep helped her with her chinese
REAP. so she came to my hse arnd 7pm
hais okay as her close fren
for years, ofcus i relised tt she aint
in the mood . she seem so not rite unlike
any other days. i didnt ask, let her be,
when she was postin, changin the music
of her blog,findin the song FirstLove
and i do relised her eyes full of tears,
i didnt ask again, and very fast she hold
her tears back. i noticed everything.
not i don't care for my frens but sometimes
i feel lk leave them alone tt wud be much
better choice. cos if i was the one, i definately
wud wan to be alone. frens of mine pls
dun get the wrong idea tt i m heartless or
wad. cos from the bottom of my heart
-i care-
i aint good at expressin my concern my
love or even my words, but true enough
i care from the bottom of my heart.
i aint any ordinary frens. i wanna be some
special fren of urs. a very special ones.
so i keep the questions to myself,
if u choose to share with me ur probs
i'm all here for u.
i cried when i read ur blog.
tt shows how fragile i am.
i burst out easily i admit but
tts me. i was born this way.
hais is very sad to see all tt.
the pain u faced I personally
understand how it feels.
cos i've undergone all tt b4.
is jus tt it happened ealier.
i hope u gonna be the one tt
i used to hang out with very soon.
the gal tt i used to noe .
the gal who dun have all these problems.
i admit u used to be a very 'strong' gal
to me. i've never seen ur tears b4.
maybe yes once durin p6 graduation day.
tts the only time.


[[ i wanna be ur special fren! ]]
[[i'm always here for u.]]

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i'm so lost.

27/1
skool was boring duh.
went out with rx and chenswee
after skool to causeway, yep had ramen
den erm ICECREAM! =] hehes i love icecream!
den went lib do our work. and went home arnd 8pm.

28/1
another boring skool day i guess.
dun really rmb wad had happened.
oh ya had band practice. erm den went
senja grand to eat. so later arnd 7pm
me teng rowenna went back to skool for
npcc campfire.hahas well erm only 10
band menbers.den erm some other
uniform groups.
hais was really damn boring loh. plus
i was dead tired after lk 3 and the half
hours of marchin. so didnt really enjoy
the campfire night. reached home arnd 10pm.
hais was really tired. =.=''

today.

i'm dead tired.. help to do the spring cleanin
the whole day. aint in the mood but wad to
do? still got to help.
so had ramen for dinner. went causeway
didnt buy anythin, wanted to buy the billabong
shirt super nice de. hais i bet if rx see tt shirt
she sure will also lk it de loh. hais but too bad is black.
so my mum said aiyo new year u buy black meh.
den i said ai yah who cares so long as i lk wad..
den she say do u mean u gona wear black to bai nian?
den i said the most i dun go lah.
den she said so u gonna stay at home alone durin
new yr ar? wad lau super lame loh.
dun wan me to buy jus say lah dun have to crap
so much wad. hais
den she insisted not to buy. hais.. tt made me lk
... hais disappointed obviously.
okay went home arnd 9pm . hais
still havent buy the new yr cloths.=[
dun feel lk goin out .. dead tired loh.
dun feel lk blog in acctually but..

[[i'm lost.]] worthless.


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`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 3:08 PM;__

much btr. full moon.

well early in the morning lk 7am.
yep walkin from jelapang lrt station
to my sch. along the way me and veron
saw the MOON =] yea full moon. and
guess wad it was shining brightly at us.
i was so happy then. so i goes lk
'hey today u see the moon is shining so
brightly at us, i'm sure today is my day.'
yep and today is so much btr! yea .
i acctually laugh alot. and some more
the moon is so near us. it aint on the
very top but it was jus so low. so
close to us. =] hope everyday has a
full moon. =.= lame lah..

so today i felt much btr. during
the 3 period of sci. we our group laugh
lk siao. all thx to kunda and kelvin lah.
lols. tokin abt the sci chapter 7&8?
aiyo abt the sex thingy. omg i bet they
suf porn everyday sia. tok lots of things
abt tt and den sulastri and me were lk =.='''
so during the 2nd break , i went to 2A
lols fool arnd there, took their new yr
decoration stuff and played with it. =]
hahas den was lk dancin *cha cha cha pong*
lols from 2A to my class 2B. phew irvin
was lk laughin nonstop.=] hahas..
den okay when goin home tt time
nazura asked me to wait for her.
and guess wad she ask me to wait for
her jus to socld the fuck up of tt
puttri(spell)? when the moment puttri
step out of her class and when she goin
down the stair nazyra stopped her. omg
and she jus scold her cheebye and start
to quarrel. omg was lk damn hiong loh .
hais. she pointed minddle fingers on puttri's
face all the way but then puttri point index
finger on her face she just slaped her hands
off. lols so funny looh. hais den so many ppl
lookin but nobody stopped them. hais
too bad i dun understand malay so dun
really noe they wuarrelin abt. only noe tt puttri
copy nazura's style and stuff . hais den nazura
was lk ANTI PUTTRI. lols okay then scold lots
of vugarities . well no teachers arnd. and den
when finally me and sulastri stopped them. hais
well so i head tt puttri cried till lk when 2A class
cum out which means 3.30pm.
hais poor thing seh. =.=''
okie so aftr tt we lot 1 eat at longjohn with
my maths mantor sulastri den later she tought
me all those i got it wrong oh and den i learn
maylay from her too. =] i wanna learn malay!
i fail my maths quiz.
hais i got tt pathetic 9 marks. f_ck sia...
den later teng and veron came so went to
their table there tok awhile loh. den later
they went to popular and stuff. den later
rongxin came to meet me. yep. so den
soon sulastri and her bf hafix left. =]
yep so rx teach me the maths too.=]
i help her do her -ying yong wen-
oh yah i help her wrote and excuse letter .
hahas den forge her mums's signature.lols.
okie so went home arnd 7.30
so sleepy loh..



[[boi]] * saya sungguh cintakan kamu!! *
saya tidak boleh hidup tanpamu!]]
- hatikuberkecai-


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`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 2:50 PM;__

everythings over.

Why Do Guys Always Break Gal's <3?

Hais... a tiring day. run 3 rounds of the sch
for P.E. and poor tuff club members and
cross country they had to run 6 or 7 rounds
early in the mornin and den when we had PE
they still nid to run 3 more rounds.
oh btw our sch is huge! =X
Mr prakash on MC. =] so slack for 1 whole
lesson. no teacher. so after sch we had IT
and den follow by the Music & technology.
till 5.30pm. so went home with sulastri and
nazura. poor hafiz(sulastri's bf) followed us
all the way till he reach his block. he supposed
to send her home but he didnt. cos sulastri was
lk angry or sth so they didnt tok for the whole
day. awww. and my poor sulastri burst our cryin
when the moment hafiz stopped followin us.
she was so mad. her heart broke into million
pieces, and streams of tears keep roolin dowm
her cheeks. uncontrolable. =X and she goes lk
*hur hur he dun care abt me, hafiz dun care abt
sulastri and bla bla bla.. okay so me and nazura
obviously didnt noe how to console her. so we jus
lk dun cry lah, dun be sad, and stuff. we aint good
at expressin our words. so yep sorrie dear..
she was crin all the way from senja to lk teckwhye?
lols not so sure. but nvm she is FINE now. she told
me they r FINE now. so yep gd for u ...
and to Hafiz dun break gals heart ever again
esp sulastri shabarudin's heart. =]

sulastri i promised to post this as the headline
of my blog today.=] i did tt.

okay so tt problem is lk over? we shall
put our past behind us. we shall forgive
and forget. dun wish to say anythin
abt it anymore. and my problems
i've shared with one of my bestest friend =]
i'm free now. i aint trap by any more probs.
thx . =]

boii..
i'm waitin for u to tell me tt u still care!
tell me i'm ur best friend.


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`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 2:08 PM;__

is not my day.. jus not..

FRIENDS = PRETENDER?

i jus realised how foolish i was to acctually treat u as a fren.
one of my closest fren. i'm jus so wrong. wad a fool i was.
yep FIRST time in my life tt i break down jus bcos of
the word friendship! is not my day. totally NOT.
i HOPE everything i saw on tt letter jus now was jus
a piece of SHITS.
but do u think is tt easy? NO is jus not tt easy to change
every single word in tt letter to be shits.
friendship is loyal, honest...
come on lah. ask yourself r u honest? r u loyal? if u are u
wudnt have said all those things behind my back. if u r, u shud
jus tell me stright tt u dun lk who i am. u dun have to
go tell so & so u dun lk me and wad shits . i got all this
from someone elses not U. u didnt dare to say. tt means
u r not honest!!! u r jus some one who is pretendin infront
\of me. and u said u hate pretenders. oh pls u yourself is
a pretender if u dont relize it! u act so innocent, u act as
if u r so caring, u act lk u r some angel from the heaven.
U R JUST ACTING! get it clear!

i shall type out wadever things on tt letter .
to let u noe how cruel a pretender is.

my letter to rowenna.
rowenna, i'm so disappointed, i jus feel lk i'm being
betrayed by someone who is so close to me. untill
today this morning i jus relised tt i'm such a stupid fool
to acctually believe tt someone who is close to me will
NEVER betrayed me. but i was so wrong. i NEVER noe
tt u r actually 2 sided.u r jus someone tt i turn to when
i nid some one and i cant imagine u did all that to me.
u might or might not be cryin rite now when u r readin
this letter but tts all i gonna tell u . i'll be 'careful' from
now on, i trust NOBODY. maybe yes 1 or 2.
i'm writing this not bcos i'm angry or wad i'm jus so
disappointed. dont explain or even aplogise i dunnid them all.
Juan`

veron:
eh, Juan, is jus a misunderstandin. i jus talk things
out with rowenna i confess i said she is 2 sided, is
acctually not,she said she just wanted to help u,
ur friendship with huiteng. 'i'm sorry rowenna'.
belief it or not i dun wan to see u and rowenna
lk tt, we r tryin to help u .

rowenna's reply.
i am also betrayed wad.. { i dun get wad she mean also}
i mean u shud atleast let me explain rite?
i jus dun wan u all to be lk so scattered.. not lk last time le.
i didnt noe anything, i jus want to noe why...
and i got the ans... it was MeiJin... she don't lk u
so she said lots of bad things abt u infront of HT.(HuiTeng)
i didnt want to be the middle man, i've no choice.
i beg u can u pls be lk last time... now huiteng with veron,
u and rebecca... i noe i dunt noe much abt u all...
but at least give me a try.

tell me wad more can i say? i'm totally
speachless. i'm disappointed. i'm
gettin so mad. i dun noe wad to say abt
the friendship, speachless abt it.
any one of u even care to bother abt my
personal problems and family problems
tt i'm facin every single every? any one of u
even care to ask? anyone? anyone of u
noe wads goin on in my life? anyone of u even
bother to ask y my laughters r so fake?
anyone of u bother to give a fuck abt it? NOBODY!
yet u ppl r givin me all these shits. i jus find it so
foolish tt i break down jus now. partly i was thinkin abt
the same questions on top over and over again
when i burst out jus now. i tot i was strong .
no i jus relised how fragile i am. all thx to those
problems and shits tt r pouring down on me by u ppl.


rowenna, i'm sorri tt i misundertook u. well
i wud rather not noe all tt u write in tt letter jus now.
honestly i hope i dun noe in the first place.
but is jus too late . since i noe everything now i'm sure
if u all r me u will react the same way.

veron, well everybody's at fault maybe...
i guess dunneed me to elaborate any further .
and i guess u shud understand VERY well after
readin this post.


Teng, i remenbered i did mention the phrase
'nobody in particular' so yep if u gonna think
tt way i've got nth to say also.

sulastri,rebecca, grace ,amanda, and those
malay boys lk hydar and? and those ppl
who came to cheer me up jus now and i kinda
ignore u guys. sorrie i wasnt bein dao or wad
so yep dun take it to heart. i'm sorry.

[[ wad is friendship? ]]

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`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 12:51 PM;__

.. nth to write.

kays. wake up kinda early today. =] 10.30 arnd there?
so on my com the minute i got dowm from my bed.
watch abit of tv. den rx smsed me. asked me go lot 1.
so yep met her 12.30 at lot 1. den went to eat lunch.
so yep windwo shopin again. den later rx bought a
pair of clip. hais i dun dare to ... so i jus walk off. =X
so l8ter she accompany me to make my spec.
wanted to buy the contact lense but i kinda think
is jus so troublesom. so i bought the frameless 1.
well not bad lah.=X erm oh good news here.
my eye sight is gettin better each day i guess.
hahas yep is gettin btr. now my right is 225
and left is 120.. oh mann soon very soon i dun
have to wear specs anymore. tts jus so great!
i'm waitin for tt one day to cum. =] i really hope
to have a perfect eyesight.=]
so wentta kfc cos we kinda missed their
cheese fries.=] haha. den later we went to shop
again... well till lk 5 plus? yep den came home
and i went down to play basketball.


oops today is Natalie's birthday eh.
shall give her a BIG hug tml..
HAPPY BIRtHDAY MY DEAREST NATALIE!

]
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`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 3:33 PM;__

pheww.. feel so sick.

wad happened today? lets see.
wake up at arnd 11.25 am. oh and the moment
i wake up, i on my com. =] den i asked veroni if she
free today cos wanna go her hse. but at first she said
she wanna go with her mum to buy shoe. so nvm .
then i went to washed up.
okay so guess wad later? i sleep again ... hahas till
lk 2 plus? okay wadever. i'm jus too tired. last night
chat with veroni till lk 1 plus? oh goodness and
today i wake up so late?! pffft ... tired.
okay so did nth useful today. nothing fullstop! =]
hais such a waste of time. i shud have done some
homeworks but i didnt have the mood to. tml
must get all my works done. oh and i jus rmb tt my
(ying yong wen ) is with rowenna. omfg. i supposed
to hand in last thursday but i didnt do so i told
the teacher i will hand in to her on monday,
but now the book is with rowenna. i'm in
deep shit! hais so kinda change some picturs
on my blog cos the previous 1 cant be seen.
den later went down to play basketball with my
bro theey all. till lk 7 plus? k den had my dinner
and went to slp again. hais sooner or later i'm
gonna becum a pig. a fat pig. oh wait i head tt
the more u slp the slimmer u will get is it true?
oh mann i hope is true eh... =]
arghhh nth interstin heh. my life... hais is jus so
'un-interestin- at all. everyday is the same.
-B-O-R-I-N-G-

music tt i listenin now // [[i dream]]

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`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 2:02 PM;__

fuckers r jus fuckers

didnt go veron's hse today due to some 'reasons'
k so met up with rongxin and we went all the way
to lakeside and we took cab to jurongwest.
pls. jus to cut her precious hair! =]
okay so suppose to meet at 12 but i cant
cos i'm always late so yep meet at 1pm.
so when we reached jurong west it was lk 1 plus goin to 2.
and guess wad.? tat shop is jus so weird heh, they nid
to book first before they can cut ur hair for u. tmd.
so yep book on the spot and we gotta wait till 4 plus.
oh mann so yep took a bus to jurong point had lunch ther
and aftr tt we eat iceream! oh mann yesterday when
we all in town we ate icecream too. =] oh gosh fattenin=X
k so went to shop for hairclips. but no luck.
k den saw both michelle yeo and lim?, huiting and some cant
rmb the names. so we took bus to jurong west again.
we reached there in time but we still gotta wait lk
half an hr. means 4.30. hais. den some more so slow loh
cut till 5 plus heh. tmd. so long and some more so
many ppl. crap.=X
so we took cab to causeway point. heh 11 buck plus
sia.. hais. so we went to toilet to style our hair.=] hahas.
nice ! oh did i mention tt both our hair style looks alike?
jus tt i got an extra tail and my hair is much curly den
hers. she dun have a tail but den her hair kinda stright.
other den tt shud be some sort of looks alike lah.
well cool. especially we spike them all up. =] muhaha is jus
so cool. ( hais some ppl might think is jus so sucky)
but well we dun give a fuck as long as we think is cool=]
okay den met teng & mj... erm went to buy hair clip den
me and rx went back home and mj & teng went to eat
dinner. ? yep tts all.

[[ if u aint happy pls stay the fuck away from
us, dun show ur fucked up attidude ]]


is 1.57AM now! not 11.59pm! tired=X
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`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 3:59 PM;__

friggin tired

school sucks! life sucks and everythin arnd me simply SUCKS!
okay not gonna mention anythin happened in sch, cos there
is nothin to blog. nth interestin. is jus 1 normal day!
my life aint interestin at all. oh yah had a maths test! gonna flunk it! dead mann.
rx came to meet us outside our sch at arnd 3pm. cos our sch
sucks tt y end so late EVERYDAY or even later. the earliest is
3pm. wtfg! okay den erm saw tj outside the sch too.
waitin for veron. =] veron,so sweet. nice bf heh.
so we took cab to town. erm due to some 'reasons'
tj didnt go with us but he met us later at fareast? k.
OH gosh our bags r lk DAMN heavy k. except rx la.
fajarian wad. dun nid to bring books hm neh. hymp.
den we all were lk dyin. bags r far tooo heavy.
plus we all were lk walkin aimlessly heh , blindly.
actually wanna buy cloths but no luck. k so we walk
blindy to hereen den nth much to shop there
so decided to go back to fareast again. omfg. TIRED. dead tired```
was lk gonna faint anytime.. so had Raman for dinner. e 1 i order
not tt nice la but hais. dun waste money. cos tt 1 small
bowl of noodle cost lk 7.90 exclude gst. so i paid $12
in total. didnt noe y end up in tt amount. nvm.
den aftr eatin we went so shop AGAIN. =X window
shoppin for most of us. except teng bought her new
yr cloths. top & bottom. =] walk tilll lk 7 den kelly,
the zodiac lady's club ppl called. ask us if we wanna
go sentosa cos is thier first anniversary party.
durin much holiday. so this time rx,teng they agreed.
yep we gotta pay $35 and teng they all $40. we pay
less i think is bcos tt time we went for the disco thingy.
k den went to eat ice cream . wow yummy!! nice heh,
but fattening!! =X $4.40 per cone. nicee.
okay so we went home at arnd 8pm. rx and teng
took cab to cck loh den me veron & tj took mrt.
yep reached home arnd 8.45pm.. omfg dead tired
now...


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`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 3:41 PM;__

i love gals!!

went sch withrongxin (fajarian=]),veron,
chenswee and we meet teng at jelapang.
nothin interestin happend in sch..
one normal day.. jus tt i did something so silly
to rebecca who is sittin beside me.=.= i'm such
a pervert! okay i poke her boobs usin my sharp comb!
den kinda lk make fun of herrr muhahaha. i'm evil!
LOLS.. irvin saw tt! =.= he was laugin away! okay i did
tt jus to grab her attention, cos dunnoe wad shes lookin
i called her lk so many times she didnt ans me.
so yep i jus poke her.. lols. had 3 period of sci. ms ongs
lesson.=.=' ````````````````````
oh yea we changed our places. but i dint! =]
our table supposed to be in circle i mean tts the purpose
of havin tt kind of table lah. but teachers complain tt
we r far too noisy so yep changed seats. and change the
arrangement of the tables. looks weird lahh..
i was hidin under the table when teacher asked me to move.
but ended up i still sit there cos no time alr.. we sit 3 by 3
and those who made the most noise is our group.
and guess wad me,rebecca and hydar(spellin?) we sit
together again! whee wheeet. =]
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after sch went lot 1 with veron,huiteng,rebecca,and meet
rongxin at BP lrt. so rowenna got off at southview.
she didnt go with us.=[ k nvm..
had lunch or is it dinner at longjohn=] den went shoppin.
and i bought a rubber band for teng and rx. i'm so nice!
veron went home first. guess she wanna meet tj bah =p
k so we went to mac sit there till 6 plus. den went to look
for dividers. okay out of stock. but Randoph jus told me
tt tml is not history lesson is geog. lols i see wrongly heh.
so fri no history!holiday! yeaaaa =] lols gotta wait till next fri!
yep dun have to rushed for the assignments.=]
so rongxin FORCED teng to look at the video clips in her hp.
is porn. LOLS teng didnt dare to look at it! she scared =X
okay so asked rx dun FORCED her cos she cant slp at
nite. =X okay the sounds the noise produced was GROSS.
tengs reaction so funny mann.lols.
laughin our asses off..=X pffft...
hais.. rx changed ALOT. i mean ALOT=X

boii delete my no from ur hp pls. dun send any
wrong msg again. i didnt want to see them.
u said it was send to wrong ppl. or u did tt on purpose?
k fine . but pls dun send again jus delete my no.
tt kind of feellings i really cant afford to have anymore.
it hurts.. u send tt kinda of msg to some other gals but
so Qiao u send to wrong person. oh mann and u send tt
to me! u noe how i feel ? when u said sorry i send to
wrong person haha. do u think is funny? not aint funny at all.
i cudnt slp till lk 4 plus. and due to tt i meet rx late.
suppose to meet her at 6 okay but i cudnt wake up. till
she called me! ALL thx to ur msg. jus delete my no
for goodness sake. i wud appreciate tt.

[[we'r strangers so no reason for u to keep my no.]]

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`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 12:31 PM;__

jus not my day!

NO is jus not my day... sorrie if i offended u!
i went to sch with smilin face almost everyday.
wad do i get in return? shitt mann is jus not my day i guess.
i'm kinda late this mornin.. rushed out of my hse.
hais some things i guess we HAVE to make them
clear if u really didnt say 'them' okay but... somebody...
hais jus didnt wanna make it clear to us. r u guilty?
r u? tell me r u guilty? i'm sure u r. =.=
i feel so sleepy the whole day.. though i went to sch,
but but BUT i absorb NOTHING! really nothing...
had PE first 2 periods. den chinese. or wad?
i cant even learnt my chinese spellin, cos i was jus to tired!
so yesh i copied! went for sci -physics- my group,
kelvin, kun da, sulastri& me. okay the guys r damn noisy!
i cant listen.. i dun get wad ms ong was tryin to said!
but i didnt dare to ask her cos she will she catch me .
for my skirt? my ear studs, my hair, my friendshipband,
okay everything lah.. so didnt ask!
den after tt had dunnoe wad maths .
i was kinda lk helpin rebecca draw the name thingy..
okay so my fault i didnt pay attention! nid tuition!!!!
any body willin to give me tuition for math? chew?
hais so after sch acctually wanna go town with rongxin
but den i didnt go. and i didnt even imform her tt i'm
not goin cos i got IT & music &technology! oh fuck she
kill me mann... =.= okay so i was totally pissed off after
we went for IT den we went for M&T guess wad?
rebecca she got me so fucked up!! i aint in the mood
alr and somemore she was lk keep askin grace to change
place with her she dun wanna sit at the back! wtf she keep
beggin loh.. so damn irritating! so i jus scream at her and
asked her to move out.. tmd. but ended up she jus
kept quiet the whole 1 hr! same goes to me.. i didnt tok
at all! den went home with nazura & some malay guys..
okay i begin to admire malay guys. =] dun u think they
got the sense of humour? some lah..
hais tts all for today!

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if we aint have any doubt for tt post, den we r INHUMAN!!
tt doesn't mean we doubt our friendship.. gal, we r as close
as sistas tts how i feel. but but but come on if i
was the one who post tt, i'm SURE u all will have the same
reaction. i didnt REALLY suspect it was either one of us
untill i saw the tagboard. honestly i think tt is me but so wad?
jus tell me if it is! i aint gonna do anythin ? probably i wun
give a fuck cos i dont noe how to react! i dunnoe wad to say
back... all i gonna have is disappointment! she lie to u?
lie to u wad? sure it has got sth to do with* she and ^she .
if not y she bother to tag she lie to u ? she dun wanna get
involve! how can ? i'm jus sayin tt she* shudnt have say those
SHITS to made u have thos thoughts on ur fren she^. cos is jus
so unfair to the other fren. u only listen to one side and u
didnt clarified things out with ur fren and u type tt post!
i'm disappointed! u said is none of us, i trust u. but gal pls
next time try to listen to 2 sides and not only 1 side! is jus so
unfair to keep the other fren in the dark of wad the SHITS
tt the other fren told ya! dun get offence when u read this post.
if u nid to tell me anythin jus feel free to speak up.. i'm online!

[[ Don't put words into my mouth!]]


[[numb]]

`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 11:20 AM;__

omg the lowsoonheng1@hotmail.com got me so fucked up!!
wad the hell he want from me mann? i didnt have him in
my contact in the first place!! how the hell he add me?
bastard dont even dare to tell his name... and keep on tokin SHITS
and made me go so madd.. oh mann and tt boon heng[spellin]?
he help me scold the fuck up of tt lowsoonheng.. =] thx u..
hais i reached hm lk arnd 7.45 or later? okay not so sure..
rx keep callin me.. hais tok abt her own stuff...
i've got so much probs but but but no body give a fuck..
okay nvm and hopefully he will read this post..
boii, from now on we will jus be strangers.
treat it as we didnt even noe each other in the first place..
i've burried u deep down in my heart and u will always remain there ..
i've had enough pls dun dao me... i dun expect u to say anythin .. seriously
from this mornin u've alr spoil my mood... but yet i've to fake another smile
jus tt another smile.. i'll nvr fake another smile for anybody! no more...
hais boon beng still quarrellin with tt guy =X.. grrr he is jus drivin me so madd...
okay wadever la i hope he will die soon.. LOWSOONHENG!!! WATCH OUT!! bastard!


[[got so fuck up after readin some ppl's blog. come on.
if u aint happy and if u think is me or who ever she is
jus say out! dun beat arnd e bush k]]

//pls dun add anymore SHITS to my life! had enough! \

-u r dead in my heart, i wont fake another smile-
stay there forever, forever in my heart.
u've totally changed to another person.
a stranger.

[[numb]]

`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 12:55 PM;__

happy birthday~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY Ah Gor!!! =]
okay today my bro's birthday!.. didnt noe eh.
i tot is tml .. hais.. so yep didnt get him a present..
nvm nvm i will get one for him soon.. very soon.=]
nth happened today i'm rottin. did some homeworks.
maths somemore.. hahas first time i acctually
put my heart in to do maths... i'm glad..=]

`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 1:07 AM;__

my day !! ruin by U yesh u!!

okay wad a fucked up day i've .
tmd. tot today wud be a btr day cos
tj wanna treat us but... hais dun wanna say
lah later this 1 not happy tt 1 not happy.
everytime lk tt . got so fed up mann..
next time better dun plan things before hand.
all we get is bein ruin.. hais.. suan le ...
so stay at home the whole day. didnt go out.
rongxin called but she cant go out ... wtf..
wad a fucked up day i've tell me?!
rottin`

`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 11:07 PM;__

i dunnoe how to march lah........ ='[

-jelapang lrt-
school was kinda okay.. went sch early again!
meet rongxin at cck. den she alight at bp.
guess we gonna go sch early from now on...
reach jelapang at 6.25. i saw him AGAIN! i'm
SURE he didnt notice me this time. okay...
my heart was bumpin a beat faster again. dun noe y
also.. my leg was lk no energy! and i was shiverin!
why why why? i also dun get it!
so when aftr the cca we went bb court to look for
the 'dinosaur' okay he a retarted guy lah.. i mean
he really got sth wrong with his brain. it aint
funtionin well.. so saw tingjian there..
so stay ther eawhile den ting jian so called fight
with dinosaur. he go disturb him wad.. but was FUN..
so walk all the way to jelapang lrt with veron, teng,
rowenna& tingjian.. all the way we were lk laughin non stop
cos of tt lamer! TINGJIAN!!! okay his 'jokes' indeed brighten
up our days lah i shud say, his 'jokes' brought us some
entertainments. at least tt was the time we laugh!
tt was the time tt i was acctually REALLY laughin! =]
i saw him again!!!! 2nd time today! oh mann ... i gonna
have a heart attack reall soon! i admit tt i wanted to see
him very much! but not when he notice me! i was speachless.
i didnt noe wad to say? this time he acctually SMILE at me?
gawd! i was too nervous to smile back.. i tured away!
my heart SHATTERED into million pieces when the moment
i turn away! i wanted to see him so much! den rowenna keep
draggin me to say hi to him! but i dun dare!! gal i really dun dare!
den he came up to us and den tt rowenna go and tell him tt i wanna
say hi to him.. wtf.. den he said hi and was lk standin there but i
jus dun dare to look. i was hidin behind ther.. gawd.. :'(
i dun wanna lose control.. i dun wanna break down.. i dun wanna
get hurt.. is jus too deep.. the wounds r jus too deep. i cant take it!.
my tears almost rolled down when we get in to the lift! i turn my
my back facin them... yea and we got out of the lift den dunnoe
y i keep standin at the window there .. lookin at his back..
he was walkin further and further away from me...

in school.
went to com lap to do reserch for the newspaper
report thingy whole of the 3 eng lessons...=]
i didnt do anythin but surfin cos rebecca was
doin it and she saved under her user name..
is a group work btw... damn slack..
after recess had our first D&T lesson today!
our teacher mr seah AGAIN! =]
hahas he is one of my fav teacher. =]
he is the one who treated us to coffee bean
durin holiday .. nice nice teacher u see.
den after the D&T we had a break and den
went for cca band practice. we were learnin
how to march for lk 2 hours! whole practice!
omg ... my first time march and is lk this! -.-'
sufferin mann.. dead tired.


[[ numb ]]

`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 6:37 PM;__

dumb me..

school was boring as usual lk duh...
i went to sch lk damn early today!
i look at the time at my hp den i tot it was 5.50
alr.. so i rushed to the mrt but guess wad?
when i reach the mrt den i look at the clock again
it was only 5.35 arghhh how blur can i get!!
so yep reach cck lrt at arnd 5.50am. was lk damn early!
i was alone in the lrt! lols. den soon got 1 man came in!
was lk WTF!! only the 2 of us?? lols i was scared!
was thinkin wad if the lrt gonna break down AGAIn?
hahas.. so all the way to teck whye den got 2 west view
ppl came in but they alight at the senja and from senja
to jelapang i was all ALONE!! grrr how scary!!!
so yep finally reach jelapang and the clock there was
6.05! yea i reach there at 6.05 sharp! lols.. so dumb rite?
hais.. waited for manda, veron, teng, rowenna.!! haiss
wait till 6.45!! they were lk 15 mins late!!! den at arnd
6.30, suddenly i saw 'HIM' yes i'm SURE it was him!!!
though he didnt spike his hair! but i still remember HIM!
my heart was lk beatin damn fast! was few beats faster!
i quickly pretent tt i didnt see him and continue to tok
to manda they all! grr was kinda heartbroken... i mean
shouldnt have turn away wad! i shud have said hi to him!
but is kinda paiseh to say hi to somebody when tt some
body dun even remember who the fuck u r rite? so yea
cum to think of tt i really shundt say hi.=] is gonna be
damn paiseh if i did jus now.. cos he he he dont even
remember me! =[ okay wadever la why the hell shud
he remember me anyway! no reason for him to rmb me!

-a sight of u, i got back all the memories once again!-
-& i keep closin my eyes but i jus cant block u out!-

`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 6:59 PM;__

jus sucks big time!

Please DON'T ever say sorry to me! cos i HATE
the word sorry! it mean NOTHING to me!
i am so NUMB! i cant feel anything! NOTHING
in this world! LEAVE ME ALONE or i'll FUCK u
upside down! trust me! i'll make ur life jus as
miserable as mine!!! i need nobody to show any
concern!pls DUN ACT AS IF U CARE when u aint!
one more thing.
dun purposly slang ur words when u tok to me i jus so
hate it!i cant stand it okay! dun act as if u can speak
so well or ur english is so damn bloody good when u
aint at all!jus be your ownself pls! cos u will only make
me hate u when u do tt! do u think u slang the words
and people will think 'oh mann ur english is so good!
u can speak so well! 'aww... fuck ur ass if u think so pls!
rmb u r still from a chinese speakin family hor! dun forget!
and rmb ur english is not tt gd okay! ur still not up to
tt standard okay! -u shud noe who u r!-
and also pls dun act cute, retarted,caring infront of me lah!!!
sicko! think u bloody hell cute? oh god . pls take a look
at the mirror lah!!!CB!!!

hey gals if u all aint happy with me jus cum up to me
tell me personally dun TALK COCK behind my back!
is thoese ppl who wanna choose my design for the
class t-shirt is has got nth to do with me! if my design
were to be choose for the final class t-shirt den tts jus
too bad for u! u can jus dun buy the t-shirt! dun give me tt
sucked up attidude of urs! dun show me ur fucked up
face! and if UR design were choosen i'll not wear them!
as simple as tt! so is up to the class to choose NOT US!
got it to ur think numb skull?

`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 7:44 PM;__

i'm dead i feel so numb!

Heart break once again! this time not bcos of
anybody in particular but ... -i'll tell u if i want to!-
okay my life ? SUCKS! or do i even noe wad is LIFE?
I dont noe i rather not noe anything than i sufer so much
jus cos i noe all those things! my heart shattered into
millions pieces.. i'm cryin NOW! my tears r jus out
of control! i cant control them! i've realised i mean
NOTHING to u! i'm NOTHING to u! u dun care anymore!
y do u in the first place give me a life! let me suffer in this
black & white world! i feel so miserable! i wish i was not
born! i really hope so! at least i wudnt suffer so much!
i cried the whole night! nobody knows! maybe my bros do!
so wad ? do u give a damn? parents if u mean to make ur
children suffer so much! PLEASE DON'T give them a chance
to be in this world in the first place! cos u'll only make them
suffer! I HATE U ALL!!! i'm cryin inside and nobody knows!
But Me! i just hate to be in this world! in my heart, now is
jus full of hatred! i noe nothin but HATE! i only noe HATE!!
yes all i noe is HATE! my mind of the word HATE! my shoes
i wrote HATE,my body I write HATE, everythin belongs to
me sure there is this word u will see! HATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yeas i HATE my life! i HATE everything here!
nobody noes how is feels lk to be me!, i wish i was as invisible
as u make me feel! i'm NOTHING!
i wish i could jus SLIT MY WRIST and watch my cares BLEED AWAY!
i hurt so much deeper than ur ever noe! is far too deep!
i cant take it anymore NO MORE! parents, ur've got ur guns to my head!
jus kill me pls!!! i'm worth nothing in ur eyes!!! dun make me feel
the pain anymore cos i cant take it! i've got hurt farrr tooo deeepppp!



i wish i could slit my wrist and watch my cares bleed away!


[[ STAY THE FUCK AWAY FROM ME ! I NEED NOBODY!]]

`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 8:23 PM;__

HAPPY birthday!!

i'm so tired today! but not bad lah we still
manage to get 96 new sec ones to join the band! =]
hahas the target is 60 at first, but some how we got 96
wow tts great! compare to last year, our batch only got
lk 30+ members.. =X tts very bad u see. so next yrs
competition still got hope i guess. =]
aftr the whole CCA orreintation thingy, all band members
we stayed back to arrange the chairs tonite's meet the parents
section!(sec ones) okay so we nid to take out the plastic wrap
arnd the chair cos the chairs are all new! grrr so tired mann..
imagin tt we arrnage 650 chairs? hais..
went to play volly ball for awhile, hais hopeless me, i dunoe
how to play =X so awhile later HuiMiang wanted to go home.
so yea went to canteen to look for rowenna & huiteng but they
said the 2 of them went off alr! oh i was lk so pissed lo, told
me they wait for me in canteen but ended up they left w/o us!
okay so me & huimiang walk to jelapang lrt on the way we saw
the 2 of them and grace! okay so i runnnnnnnnnn and ruuuunnn
and shout so damn loud for rowenna! omg we were lk some mad
women heh.. =X so they stop there den aftr tt we oso stop den i
told miang tt we gonna pretent we damn pissed but we jus cant !
we were laughin all the way!! den rowenna noe wads in my mind
tt moment! lols =] this gal really noe me so well sia.. wad i was
thinkin she noe heh.. so we went to greenrige?(spellin) shoppin
centre there den rowenna and grace went back to skool. oops
i kinda mistaken her. hehex is teng ask her to send her to jelapang lrt.
and she is goin back to skool again! lols sorri gal! i tot u panseh me mah!
okay so later didnt meet veron at lot 1 cos she gotta go take the edusave thingy!
so me teng,miang were lk explorin the bukit panjang area! we walk all the way
to farjar lrt station! =X so damn far okay.. hais so miang went home!
me and teng took mrt loh..

today is my mother's birthday!! happy birthday motherrrrr!!
oh is deans birthday too!!! Happy birthday deanie!!
celebrate my mums bday, bought a cake for her =] hehes
took some pictures this and tt. den later we went to play basketball
at arnd 9 with bros and chenjie.=] till lk 11pm. hahs so tired mann =X
oh den took shower den online again. Dean he was online too. okay
so wished him a happy birthday den chat till 1am plus.. so now i'm
here to blog in..=X is late now gtg slppp...

`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 11:02 AM;__

Happy birthday veron!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VERONI !!!
veroni!!! ur 14th birthday TODAY! 6th jan!
hahas. here i am to wish u a VERY happy birthday!
dun tell me u aint happy at all today!
dun tell me u'r so sianz jus now.
dun tell me u dun feel anithing special today!
dun tell me is jus one normal day for u!
dun tell me u aint touched at all i'm sure u do!
okay u might not be so touched but at least u still am!
okay so dun act so 'cold' for jus today! =p cos u always do.
as if u aint got a heart ! hahas jkjk..
dun hide ur feelins =pp be happy on this SPECIAL DAY!
may ALL ur wishes come true for u! =]
and may God bless the asses to keep in touch
forever. dun say is impossible cos i believe if we try
at least we still got some hope to be frens forever! =]
rmb nth is impossible! =]

okay so went causeway to so called celebrate veroni's
birthday!. yep ate at pizza hut and we laughed trough
out the whole thing till we finished our foods
and when we left pizza hut we still laugh!! okay all thx
to Huiteng and Tingjian!!!! hey thx u guys hor!! =
hey the bill is $61.61 & somemore today is 6/1
ans is veroni's bday! u see is so freaky ! so qiao!!!
oh mann... ppl must buy ToTo heh.. =] sure win!
if dun win arh cum and find me! lols =]
so after tt the bday gal and her bf went toilet
so we rushed to buy cake without tellin them!
we wanna give her a surprise u see. =]
okay and then i bought a cake and rushed all
the way to buy tissue and stuff den i went to
a corner where got lots of bike parkin there.
so teng & mj went to buy lighter!
okay we took so long to light the candles!!
all thx to the wind lahh! =X
so obviously veron kept callin me but i didnt
ans. and after tt we told them we'r at the neoprint
outlet. so yep have more time to prepare! so
obviously they couldnt find us cos we aint there mah!
so again kept callin me! so when we get ready everythin
i called back & asked them to cum down .. =]
hahas okay so i dont noe if she was surprised or not lah
but i hope she did! =X okay veron i seriously hope
u did!!! =]
hahas sang bday song all tt den cut the cake! wow nice...
hahas... crap alot there! and laugh alot too!
okay bascically i was laughin all the way lah!
haiss cant stand them lah! tingjian dun be so BAD!!!
so came home at arnd 9 plus!
hais tml no lesson for us! nid to go for band rehersal!
okay all for the sec 1 cca day loh.. =X gotta wear tt ugly
uniform!!! eeekx.. okay lah gtg stop here! tirRED!!!
oh had LOTS OF FUN TODAY!!! =] jus now!

I've become btr today! i dun scold vulgarity!
at least not so much! =] i wanna be good!
i dun wanna be so wild animore! =] so ppl
if u all ever see me scoldin vulgarities PLS
whack me okay! =]
[[Happy birthday veroni !]]
God Bless.

`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 9:30 PM;__

2nd day of sch.

okay 2nd day of sch! and i am already
begin to regret WHY THE HELL didnt i transfer!!!
i wished i m not in this sch honestly! i jus so hate it!
i regreted!!!! yea i do! and i m still regrettin NOW!
had PE early in the mornin!Run one whole round of
sch compund! IS BIG!! for ur info!!
and aftr PE we got SCI! MS ONG's lesson!
okay obviously i was so worried cos i dun have the theory
and practical bks! OUT OF STOCK!!! okay but she
kinda understand the situation la.. hais but i'm gonna
be in deep shit tml i guess! cos i forgot to ask the bk
shop aunty if they still have! so i went popular but
they said they dun have anymore alr! oh fuck..
so few mins before the sch ends i had a feelin tt my
*erhem* visit me again! oh gawd! is really visitin me!!
oh fuckk! immediatly i got moodswing! aftr i came back
from toilet so went to 2A classromm cos gals waitin for
there! =X okay so i didnt tuck in my shirt! -obviously-
tt JONATHAN CHEW asked me to tuck in jus bcos tt
he is a SL!! and i kinda lk tuck in alr,
but it aint properly tuck in! so he goes lk:
HUIJUAN TUCK IN UR SHIRT!!! '
oh fuckk u little boii..
bloody hell! i yelled back at him!! HYMP!! serve
him rite! tts jus his luck i guess! he shudnt tok to me in the
first place cos i was havin moodswing! dumbass!!!
oh den went for band practice! we are havin practice
EVERYDAY!!! okay nvm with tt! but the band members!?
oh mann.. i begin to hate this band too! yeas seriously
i dun wish to go for band practice ! PS: not becos of the
everyday practice but is becos of the members!! yeash!
i got so fucked up!! DAMN BITCH!!! hey so wad if ur SL?
so wad if ur in clarinet section!? does tt mean u can
ask all the alto saxophone players to get the fuck off!?
hey bitch u still dun have the right to do so !!! oh please,
u think ur SL such a big deal?go fuck ur mother if u think
so okay! CB!!seriously u dun have the right to ask alto sax
to go away okay! cos u aint holdin any post! and if we
really nid to stand in the other row when we fall in,
the flutes have the right to ask us to move to the next row
and NOT u BITCH!! ur from the clarinet u aint standin
next to our row! and we aint standin in ur position!
even if we stand in the wrong row and is not urs is flutes!
oh and if u really wanna mind so much abt others business
u can jus say alto sax can u all move to the next row cos
the flutes have not enough space! AND NOT : ' the alto sax
GO AWAY LAH! or is it get lost u said?'
oh mann fuck ur mother lah tt space belongs to u?
ur G.FATHER? UR G.MOTHER? OR any of ur relatives?
hey bitch!! tt space aint belong to any of ur relatives for
goodnes sake!! and u asked us to go away!? let me tell u !
YOU DONT HAVE THE RIGHT TO SAY THAT!-bitch-
oh BiTcH pls DONT act cute okay! cos u AINT cute at all!
if any one thinks tt u'r cute oh mann i suggest those ppl
SHOULDT got for a check up! seriously need to! no jokkin!
arhg!!! got so pissed the whole day! and is only the 2nd
day!!! =X wad a fucked up life i have?

`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 8:10 PM;__

first day of sch!!!

first day of sch? SUCKS!
okay early in the mornin, made us
sit in the hall listen to his craps! simly
CRAPS! okays is boring!-duh-
tok for so long some more! hais.. nuts..
so yep jus got to noe tt we cant wear jacket
when we'r in the hall! wad crap is it!?
hey cant u see the weather is `cold` these days?
after tt sent us back-sec 2 & 3- to class!
so `he` wanna tok to the sec 4s &5s..
is so unfair! the sec 1 are havin their orrientation
days.. lk 5 long days! where as last yr we only
have 2 or is it 3 days? IS UNFAIR!!!
okay got to noe who is our form teachers!
mrs Selvi(prounce as selva?) & Mr Prakash!
lols these yr new teachers have kinda weird names
heh. lols oh yea if i'm not wrong 1 of them is
tan tok seng? lols dunnoe how to spell!
okay so our physics teacher is MS ONG!!!
argh!!! our DM!! which i've beein runin away
from her whenever i see her since last yr!
OH MANN.. i got caught for so many fucking times!!
ohh i'm goona be in deep shitt this year! =X
so when she step into the class jus now,
everybody shut thier gaps so tight!!! she told
us her expectations and stuffs. after tt she asked
for rules in her class! and i'm the first she called!!
FUCK!! i was so damn nervous!! i quickly took
out ALL 8 ear studs!! LOLS... oh and i didnt
dare to look at her! and my mind was totally blank!
i didnt noe wad to say! such a simple Q i didnt noe
how to ans! oh fuckk.. okay not i dun noe but my
mind went totally blank when she asked for my name!
wad a joke!! why m i so nervous when i see her?
oh and our geography teacher is ms Teo( new)
haiss we gonna have really `GOOD' time during
her lessons mann.. she started the lesson already!
despite tt so many of us didnt bring our bks.!.
she wanna make us speak up MORE during
her lesson!!.. and she gave us homework ALREADY!!
hey lady we aint preparing for Olevels nor any other
exams so soon! this is our first day of sec 2 pls!... gosh!
okay so sch ends at 1.45 arnd there. but dunnoe
why for today only they allow us to go back earlier!
but all band menbers cant!
hais.. we have practice on the firstday!!!!okay
so from 3 till abt 5.30.. haiss...
cant go out!! argh!!
went home with rowenna huiteng ching leon
and si hui! they both looks lovin! eeekk
okay and they walk infront of us!! ching leon i guess
he wanted to hold si hui's hand but ended up he took
back his hand!.. lols! so shy.. =X
okay jus watched the HUAN LE DIAN FENG ch 8.
OMG tt retarded guy he is so gay! he was makin a fool
out of himself! dumbass.. eeekkk.. puke!!!! FUNNY Man!
hais..

- oh i did mention tt i HATE my sch to be at jelapang
firstly is becos is jus tooo far from my hse!
- secondly there aint any bus from any of the lrt staion
nor mrt station! okays tts totally sucks..
imagin we gotta walk so far durin ranin day jus lk
wad we did this mornin!!
-thirdly, is becos i still cant accept the fact. i cant
i'm scared tt i gonna get hurt when i see him as
he is jus livin near ther! oh man we might bump
into each other anytime! i'm scared! i'm sucha coward!

-oh pls dun let us bump into each other! i'm scared
i cant accept the fact YET... -

`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 7:06 PM;__

we'r frens.

Now we r jus frens! pure frenship.
i still cant accept the fact,
but i'll pretend tt i'm fine!
when i see u i will run away,
i dun noe y, maybe i dun wan to
get hurt. a sight of u, my heart will
shatter into million pieces again...
when i'm arnd u,
i wish tt u were still mine!
to be arnd u, HURTS.
but u'll nvr noe it.
i'll keep all these pain inside.
and especially to u i'll nvr show it!.


-oh mann i've becum so vulgar these days!
i dun wish to but i cant control! i've becum
so wild ! some of my frens said tt! even my MUM!=X
okay i dun noe why the hell they think tt way!
maybe i did changed ! alot? okay i'm not sure!
but surely i've changed! changed to some one tt
i dun wish to be lk! i hate it!
i must go church often i guess, to receive some
enlightments! i seriously need to! i've become so
lazy! tt i didnt even wan to go church when my
mum asked me to! i felt tt is such a waste of time?!
oh mann i didnt have tt kinda feelin last time!
i used to ask my frens to go! my pals! teng and veron!
but now i feel lk goin to church is a waste of time!??
so obviously i didnt go today! i feel so bad! i'm sinful!!
how can i have tt kinda feelin!! i must get punishments!!
now i refused to go! wadde hell!??! and cum to think
of which, i seriously need to go and really need to
receive some enlightments!! pls -God Bless Me-

Skool is starting!!! i aint excited at all!
homeworks wud start to pile up AGAIN!!
oh shitt... i hate it! and think of the MATHS
homeworks and exams i gonna have soon!
i feel lk dying mann.. oh and think of tt
i gonna run away from DM every time
i see them i gonna have nightmare!
oh gosh!! their hauntin me in my dreamsss!
eeekkk... i hate it i hate it i seriously HATE it!
i feel tt holiday is tooo short!!!
i didnt enjoy myself at all! all thx to the
DAMN weather!!! is raining!! every single day!
oh well these few days! such a waste of my holiday!!
wadever it is i cant decide! i didnt set the rules!
i didnt have the right to extend the holidays! do i?
obviously not! so tts jus too bad!... so wad i gonna say
is this I HATE IT!!!
HOPEFULLY i dun get caught this year!
i dun get into any troubles, i dun flunk my maths,
i dun slp in class, i dun tear my maths test paper
when i receive the paper AGAIN!
i dun have to run 2 round for goin to skool LATE!
( okay but jus in time wud be much better! cos
this year the sch is so damn big! so 2 round we
gonna die mann. VERON & CS, WE CANT BE LATE
AGAIN!! RMB THE SKOOL IS BIG!!! WE CANNOT
TAHAN 2 ROUNDS!! =X) And HOPEFULLY my
days in the new sch new class wud be much more
meaningful!! =]
okay i pray hard for all thats! hopefully God wud
forgive me! =) and make my wishes cum true!

-God Bless-

`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 3:51 PM;__

i drank bear.

oh mann. i feel great!!!
jus came back from some kind of dinner!
at lavender!!! super far!!!
oh and i had a glass of alcohol!!! i feel great!
obviously my father didnt allow but who cares!
he went to next table to drink with his frens!
so me and my bro. we drank too.
wowww super nice.. lols our face all red!
oh and i felt giddy now. but whos cares!
i feel so high! my mind is blank! really alcohol
really let us feel high ya noe tt? lols.
oh and i become crappy aftr i had a glass
of alcohol. i kinda feel lk vomitin.. i guess is
chemical reaction. okay wadever it is
I FEEL HIGH! SUPER HIGH! I FEEL GREAT!
i'm sleepy, i'm giddy, i'm high, i'm crappy, i'm happy
all thx tt glass of alcohol! oh did i mention
tt my father kinda lk drunk!? lols! on the way home
he said he felt tt as if he is floatin!! LOLSS wad crap!
oh and one thing happen jus now durin the dinner .
there is this man he is drunk but he came to our table
and he ask ppl to drink with him .. den he said
hey come `ji lan ji bua`(hokkian) den my bro so
stupid go and say `gan qing buey sua.`(hokkian)
then the ppl ther keep laughin loh.. lols
den the mann said since my bro say ji lan ji bua
gan qing buey sua so my bro shud share the
alcohol with him den he is alr a drunkard
so he insist tt my bro shud drink! lols
my bro was lk so scared loh.. lols btw tt mann
looks so scary eh his face lk pig head! all red! lols.
so end up my father drink loh... cos dun wan
tt man to creat trouble wad.. hais advice:
dun drink too much till u drunk, is bad!!!
okay so today -new year- =] yep
hopefully gonna be a blessed year for me =]
-God Bless-

-ji lan ji bua gang qing buey sua- =
-yi ren yi bang gang qing bu san- =)

`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 12:14 AM;__

2004 is over

oh my...
2004 is OVER!!! yes! over!! is a past !!!
another history! a yr full of hatred, anger,
sad, heartaches are jus another history
in my life. of cus is also a year full of memories!
sweet memories!!! well but is over now!
i'm glad! is finally over! hope for a better year!

HAPPY NEW YEAR =]
now is one brand new year!
i wish upon a star!!!
i wish tt my life wud be much much better
this year! no more heartbroken,
no more bitches/ bastards pissin me off,
no more pain, no more sadness in my dict!
and excel well for the exams! and be a better
peron! hopefully , Lord wud forgive me
and make me have that 2 wishes i made!=]

Shout out to:
[[veron]]good luck with ur guy in this
brand new year! hope everything
goes on smoothly for the both of u!

[[Mj]]hey gal relax abit k.. hope u feel
better! dun let those bitches ruin ur new
year hor.. if next yr they do again , tell me
earlier i go with u and kill them.. lols lame..
okay lah erm study hard loh. fine ur
bai ma wang zi soon! =p must let us noe k!

[[Teng]]hahas.. next yr diff class le no more
laughters from u rowenna and me in the
same class le.. sob sob. but nvr we still
can hang out aftr skool.. during recess time!
yeas and i hope ur wish of becumin 2nd?
or is it 3rd? will cum true! =]
btw u stead with arron? =pp askin only hor..

[[rowenna]]hey gal this year better dun cry lk
wad u did last yr leh.. cos when u cry i cant
see ur eyes!! oh and hopefully u gonna go
steady with ah ming ge! =pp..

[[bird]] oh my. my sweetheart...
so nice of u to add so many testimonials
for us.. erm best of luck in wadever u do..
ps: luv ya lotssssss okayy.

[[zk]] erm okay dun really noe wad to say ..
a big big big THANK YOU for wadever
u've done for me, i'll keep the promise.
argh i guess no words wud express
my feelings at this mement! i'm sure u
noe how i feel now.. oh and wadevr i
wanna say i've said them all...
so yep happy new year !!!
best of luck in wadever u do!
frens 4ever hor.. tc..
-God Bless-

[[Jon]]aiyo i jus gonna say hope to be in
same class in sec3 sec 4! =]
okay erm yea friends for life!
Gd luck in ur relationship with her*


hais well and to all my other frens!
BEST OF LUCK IN WADEVER U'LL
DO! -happy new year-
-God Bless-

`Juan*

`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 5:16 PM;__

MYSELF;
` Hui Juan.
` EKYO.
` 06.06.1987.
` Emotional.

LOVES;
` Him<3.
` Movies.
` Shopping.
` Music.
` Green.
` Pink.
` Brown.
` Black.

DON'T JUDGE ME;

LINKS.
Ah Boy<3
huiteng
jasmine
jian rui
karen
meijin
Meiling
Nerissa
Rebecca
teresa
sheena
veron
vicky
wushuang
LESBIES*


MEMORIES;
July 2004 August 2004 September 2004 October 2004 November 2004 December 2004 January 2005 February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 October 2005 November 2005 December 2005 January 2006 February 2006 February 2007